Hi.
So I am pretty sure that barely anyone uses these anymore which is actually why I want to use this. I get really bad social anxiety (even online because people are mean), and want to be able to share my art and say whatever I want to say without any judgement. It's kind of the grey area of not exactly being totally private, but also not fully putting myself out there for people to judge and bully me. I know it's stupid to assume that's what will always happen when I put myself out there. Lowkey, not to trauma dump, but I was pretty much bullied my whole life so I guess I kind of assume people are out to get me.
So I am pretty sure that this is something that people did in the 2000s. Now I believe the equivalent is y'know, social media. It's not that I don't have or use social media, it's just that writing long ass posts like this has kinda become a dying art form. Not to be all boomer/milennial but I feel like the whole "short form content" thing kinda takes the fun out of expressing yourself. It's all about being captivating and engaging or whatever, keeping people on their toes (idek if that's the expression i'm autistic ok), but like a lot of what you do on social media is meaningless and just promotion & pleasing others. Maybe not for y'all, but for me it's a slippery slope into becoming uncreative and uninspired. Don't get me wrong, tiktok is super fun, but I also love having a place like this to ramble on about stuff. I journal all the time, love ranting & complaining about stuff and I've always loved writing and have been looking for an excuse to get back into it. So fuck it! Here we are! Knowing me I WILL forget about this in the next 24 hours, but if I don't; I have a feeling this'll be good fun!!!
Actually since there is a small chance that someone might see this here's my obligatory introduction:
My name is Rae (Rachelle shortened bc of the awful spelling) and while I am currently an unemployed loser, I am also a practicing artist so that's fun. I plan to hopefully start uni next year, where I will be imminently turning 24!!! (currently im 22) Which will be a super fun existential crisis. It's already so bad that I literally keep forgetting how old I am because I don't want to think about it. Mentally I'm still 15 and I could write a whole page about that and probably will. I'm a heavily gay leaning bisexual liberal blue hair with pronouns etc [my pronouns are she they btw:)] and I'm from the south of the UK. I am awfully awkward, which is why I prefer typing stuff here. Here I'll mostly be ranting about random shit. you might find me pretentious and anoying at times because at 2am I sometimes become delusional and think I am a poet when really I'm spewing nonsense. So if you come across any of those posts on here pls ignore them. I will try to refrain. I love cats, watching silly funny tv shows like smiling friends or rick & morty (something ik wont make me cry bc im sensitive ok)
Anyway if anyone reads this and you read all the way to here congratulations U deserve a gold star here u go ⭐
If you decide to stay for whatever reason, I look forward to sharing more nonsense and silly rants for ur eyes.
yours rather truly
✮♡rae♡✮